Sometimes when you wait long enough, one of life’s little mysteries gets explained. Today when I logged online, I saw a piece about exploding head syndrome. I have experienced it, never talked about it and now I read that it’s rather common. I have little trust in the current medical regimes but it’s a relief to know maybe I’m not having little strokes.
Wikipedia makes it sound more serious and rare, calling it a form of hypnagogic auditory hallucination. Other explanations have been temporal- lobe seizures and dysfunctions of the tiny bones of the middle ear. The new research indicates it could be that the auditory neurons fire all at once instead of shutting down in stages. Maybe at one time I had fear and anxiety about it but now it’s more like, “no, not one more thing”.
My ataxia symptoms have been worse lately. Also something has been glitchy with my struggling to find words. Because of the staggering gait issue I feel like wearing this slip for a while.
It’s actually part of an outfit that has a lace overlay. The overlay doesn’t work. It appears to have an alpha included that makes the lace totally see through. Like you can see my black hair hanging down my back through my invisible body. Anyway, the slip reminds me of dancers costumes in a video I really like. If I had more energy I’d look for ballet slippers but barefoot is fine for now. Seeing the color and fabric on my avatar soothes something in my nervous system.
When I watch television and see someone fall down or get slammed into something, I experience the jolts in my nerve endings. I had to quit watching ice dancing for that reason. It took too much of a toll.
Someone on campus asked me more about my “disability”. I like to give the benefit of the doubt and so I attempted to explain. It’s one of those times when I don’t seem to making myself clear but no one has mentioned that to me lately.
There have been incidents when people have been mocked for sharing information like this.
I intend to get through the LEA 23 experiment through June.